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- Feeling:
chipper
Nobody ever told me that being a mother or just having a child was this beautiful. In fact, society said it’s extremely difficult and should be avoided until one is well prepared for it. Sometimes on TV or in the movies, I see characters who are scared of the responsibility of having a kid. I hear stories about fathers running away from their babies. Society seems to dislike the idea of parenthood to the point of referring to unplanned conception as an “accident.” I find it mean for people to consider someone so beautiful as an “unwanted person.” It is as if having a baby is a great misfortune that people should avoid.A big family is better? Huh, how is it such? A big family places financial strain on the parents, as well as emotional strain on the children. Think about it.
This is the trouble with the Reproductive Health Bill. Much as I try to understand, I am concerned over how the bill considers conception as a whole. I have read it for my school report and it disturbs me to think that society would be so reluctant to welcome a human being who is about to be born. The drive to promote “informed choice,” proper birth spacing, etc. in order to avoid unplanned parenthood seems to make having a baby something scary.
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I feel offended. As someone who loves her, I feel hurt for my niece. She is what they consider an “unplanned one.” The people promoting the bill look at my niece or all those born or about to be born like her as a burden to the country and a liability. They say we need this bill because it prevents people like her from being born.
Why would anybody prevent anyone as beautiful as a child to come into this world? Regardless of who the parents are or how the conception happened, a child is separate from the parents. Every child is beautiful.
The bill also wants to promote sex education to teach adolescents, mothers, fathers about “safe sex.” Safe from what? From conceiving a child? Why? But why give more importance to the pleasure of sex than the pleasure of becoming a parent? We are becoming more like the Westerners. We have forgotten that to Filipinos, a big family is a better family.
This is what I find troubling with the anti-RH bill. They put emotion over reason.
Also, every child is not an "absolute" burden to the world. In fact, they are welcome. But it rests on the parents of the child to take care of their health.
Here is where culture and health clash. I find offense in this.
- Feeling:
disappointed
Anyone older than 20 is not going to tune into pro wrestling unless they've been a fan of it for awhile. I know most of my friends have stopped watching, simply because they feel pro wrestling is just garbage and makes no sense. Which is why WWE are playing it smart, by appealing to a younger audience, and getting them hooked.I am among the "older than 20" crowd, so I know where he's coming from.
- Feeling:
thankful - Listening to:Just Close Your Eyes - Story of the Year
South Africans received a horrifying measure of just how bad their country's rape crisis is with the release this week of a study in which more than a quarter of men admitted to having raped, and 46% of those said that they had raped more than once.
The study, conducted by South Africa's Medical Research Council, reveals a deeply rooted culture of violence against women, in which men rape in order to feel powerful, and do so with impunity, believing that their superiority entitles them to vent their frustrations on women and children. The men most likely to rape, the researchers found, were not the poorest, but those who had attained some level of education and income.
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Gender advocates say that the 2006 rape trial of prominent politician Jacob Zuma was incredibly damaging to their cause. Zuma, who was elected President this year, was tried and acquitted of raping an HIV-positive family friend. He told the court that the woman had dressed provocatively, in a traditional wrap-around kanga, and that it was against Zulu culture for a man to leave a sexually aroused woman unsatisfied.
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"What we have are the wounds of men creating wounds in women, creating wounds in children," says Zevenbergen. "Who is going to stop the vicious circle?"
Sigh. And this is why South Africa has always been the butt of jokes when it comes to rape. Right, the vicious cycle must stop. It's sad that a false argument has been in use against our outrage about this issue.
- Feeling:
distressed
Update on my life so far: YES! I'll be in Medical School.
Not-so-good News: I'll be staying at a dormitory far away from the University I took my pre-med course.
Will now find another means to connect to the Internet.
- Feeling:
crushed - Listening to:Break Out - Rockman Zero Complete Game-Music Collection Rockman Zero 1~3
HONG KONG (AFP) – Hong Kong officials have found traces of cocaine in cans of Red Bull, a few days after Taiwanese authorities confiscated close to 18,000 cases of the popular energy drink.LOL Intially, I misread the title to mean that there is "caffeine" in energy drinks and I immediately laughed. Oops.
Officials at the Centre for Food Safety said a laboratory analysis found tiny amounts of the illegal drug in samples of "Red Bull Cola", "Red Bull Sugar-free" and "Red Bull Energy Drink", a spokesman said.
The drink has now been taken off the shelves of major supermarkets, the spokesman said in a statement issued late Monday. He added the amount of cocaine found in the drinks posed little health danger.
Seriously, though, if this batch ever gets out of the country, expect a different kind of "high" and "energy".
- Feeling:
complacent - Listening to:Blame It On The Alcohol - Jamie Foxx feat. T-pain
Haven't had time due to my fizzled state of mind these past few days. I'd been driven, at one point, to update, sort out my thoughts, and then the next point in time, I'd drop like a dead horse, unable to move even a single muscle. Sigh.
I have a roller coaster of emotions right now. So I feel like updating today, then what's next? Sigh.
I don't understand myself. I feel like I only have my name just because, and no other reason at that. Not even satisfying for myself, but for my family, who I treasure dearly. Sigh.
I'm lost in thought. Leave me alone.
- Feeling:
crappy
A lot of things has happened, I couldn't contain in a single post.
... I had nothing, alright?
Right now, I'm in America, getting my VISA passpost renewed and all. I don't know much about the details, but I'm already here, so...
... I had nothing much to say, other than to endure and bear it all. I hate things that don't go as planned. As I have planned.
... in two weeks, I get an invitation for an interview. Yeah, finally, I said to myself.
Was it worth it? I keep asking myself that.
I keep myself busy before that day. I listen to music on YouTube. I do my daily check of all the websites I'm registered in. Multiply, Facebook, Windows Live Mail, Yahoo, LiveJournal, you name it. I'm just that bored.
Luckily I have to partake in new icons, such as this one you've seen recently. I have a liking to slice of life shows like this, and it's an anime. I say to myself, finally.
Seen coherent thoughts? Anything? Well, that shows how scattered my brain is right now. I'm hungry. I hate something right now. I have no hand in my fate.
Damn.
- Feeling:
apathetic - Listening to:Voices - Rev Theory
Interesting question, as I've already thought of this for a long time now. Waiting for this question to pop up on LiveJournal.
"Metallingus" by Alter Bridge...
A bitter place and a broken dream.
And we'll leave it all, leave it all behind
I'll never long for what might have been.
No regret won't waste my life again.
Oh I won't look back
I'll fight to remain:
...or No More Words by endeverafter. Totally rocks!
A thousand threats I've heard before
Your words are cheap, your lives are made to pay.
- Feeling:
chipper
Back in elementary,... no wait, make that Grade School (because it was all about the grades then)... yeah, Grade School.
...our classes were divided into sections with the different flowers known back then as "Section Names". Kinda like how the country of Japan is divided into "chromes" and the Philippines is divided into "cities and provinces". In other schools, classes in each level were named after famous scientists like Einstein, Newton, and Archimedes. (The last one, by the way, was used in my High School levels.). You'd hear "Gumamela class", "Aristotle class", or "" even, whenever a class reunion is organized, published in newspapers, on television, and even on the Internet. What's bothering me is the significance of these "classifications", other than giving a collective group of people an identity, a nomenclature, that they belong to something. That something, which I find hard to describe up to now, is "pakikisama". The other one is "pakikipagsapalaran".
Sure, we've had our trials and tribulations back then, and during these times, the identity factor comes in. Say, if you identify with others as though you belong with them, people outside might wonder why you'd be sticking up to them. You'd answer, "We used to be from the same class...", and I don't fault anyone for saying that. During these times, it is needed that camaderie is established. Identity, I'd call it.
Now what am I getting at, after all these "gibberish"? I myself am loking for that identity. After all, I have graduated past those stages of idenfying myself with a particular section at certain times in my life: Grade School, High School, Entrance Examinees, College, and Admission Test Takers.
In other words, I feel lost today. See where I'm getting it?
- Feeling:
confused
I only went on a Sabbatical because I was in the middle of reviewing for the NMAT, in which I really need a high score if I want to get in the best medical school. The only ones I know of are in Ateneo and in UE. Even before the date in which I will be taking said test, I already got reje- no, the more correct term politically would be "not accepted" - due to limited slots in the third batch of incoming freshmen student for Ateneo. So that left me with UE.
So I took the NMAT last Sunday, and that's when the Sabbatical was supposed to end. No, unfortunately. My mom had other plans for me, which included a three-week trip to the United States, just so that my VISA gets renewed. What that also means is that I would be in another Sabbatical from the Internet. I already know for a fact that the Internet overseas isn't as cheap as here in the Philippines, but do I have a say in this. Apparently no.
So that left me with the option of preparing my posts for all of my blogs, including this one, before the Great Trip to America.
I'm already doing it here, and all that's left is my hobby blog, which will be celebrating it's fourth year - mostly in dormancy - of existence. I really, really do not have a say in what I have already planned to do, since it's laid down and forced to step on the pathway. Sigh.
- Feeling:
aggravated
We’re wont to believe that nothing will happen.Indeed. Much has been said in this entry, and to add insult to injury, there is nay a judge of character can do about it. Sigh.
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What mattered was that a victim of rape, a rape survivor, a Filipina, a woman who was gang-raped at the back of a van, had the backbone to stand up to the justice system and say, and be proven right in saying:
“I was raped. Rape is wrong. I demand justice.”
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Rape is a crime so base, so banal, so low, so more human-than-human, that people make all sorts of judgment calls. “Did you enjoy it?” “How was it?” “How could you not have expected it if you were wearing that miniskirt and tube top?” “How could you not have resisted?” Bollocks? Of course it is.
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Rape is a metaphor: raped by thoughts, raped by conscience, raped by media, raped by public opinion. Rape is everywhere, in the metaphorical sense; it is when rape is translated into the forcible entry of the penis into the vagina that things become clearer, more vivid, more lucid. The crime is as human as it is animalistic.
- Feeling:
disappointed
I’m talking about those sexy billboards along EDSA.How, indeed. Ironic that this month is Women's Month and this issue gets backpedalled by bigger issues like the Legacy "scam", "coming 2010 presidential elections", and the abswelto kay Nicole. Sigh.
Personally, I’m old enough to accept that EDSA right now is a smorgasboard of cheap thrills rivalling that peddled by Playboy, Maxim and FHM, all combined. You don’t need to buy a copy of those magazines. You just simply traverse this long avenue and you’ll satiate your animal desires for RR Enriquez, Anne Curtis, Angel Locsin and even Thai model Paula Taylor.
Look—these outdoor advertisers have turned the entire avenue into a sleazy parade of scanty clad women and teenagers, all vying for the title of the boldest star of EDSA.
What happened to that bill filed by Senator Miriam Defensor-Santiago against sexy billboards? What had happened to the investigation initiated by Cong. Edcel Lagman on the regulation of these billboards?
There is no justice served. Only a justice converted to currency. No shame, no guilt. Damn.
- Feeling:
bitchy
Opinions not mine, the person they taught me to be
One night in the dark, a vision of someone I knew
And in the darkness I saw, a voice say, I'm you.
Inside me a light was turned on Then I was alive
If you close your eyes your life, a naked truth revealed
Dreams you never lived, and scars never healed
In the darkness, light will take you to the other side
And find me waiting there you'll see, if you just close your eyes
Hearts uninspired, trapped inside somebody's dream
Too close to the fire, yet cold and numb with the pain
But the fever has broken, and the river has run to the sea
Washed to the ocean, and saved by a voice inside me.
Inside me a light was turned on Then I was alive
If you close your eyes your life, a naked truth revealed
Dreams you never lived, and scars never healed
In the darkness, light will take you to the other side
and find me waiting there you'll see, if you just close your eyes
Never thought I would be here, so high in the air
This is my unanswered prayer
Defined by another, so much wasted time
Out of the darkness, each breath that I take will be mine
If you close your eyes your life, a naked truth revealed
Dreams you never lived, and scars never healed
In the darkness, light will take you to the other side
and find me waiting there you'll see, if you just close your eyes
- Feeling:
drunk - Listening to:Just Close Your Eyes - Story of the Year
The lecturer replied, 'The absolute weight doesn't matter. It depends on how long you try to hold it. If I hold it for a minute, that's not a problem. If I hold it for an hour, I'll have an ache in my right arm. If I hold it for a day, you'll have to call an ambulance. In each case, it's the same weight, but the longer I hold it, the heavier it becomes.' He continued, 'And that's the way it is with stress management. If we carry our burdens all the time, sooner or later, as the burden becomes increasingly heavy, we won't be able to carry on.'
'As with the glass of water, you have to put it down for a while and rest before holding it again. When we're refreshed, we can carry on with the burden.'
'So, before you return home tonight, put the burden of work down. Don't carry it home. You can pick it up tomorrow.'
'Whatever burdens you're carrying now, let them down for a moment if you can.'
So my friend, put down anything that may be a burden to you right now. Don't pick it up again until after you've rested a while. Here are some great ways of dealing with the burdens of life:
- Accept that some days you're the pigeon, and some days you're the statue.
- Always keep your words soft and sweet, just in case you have to eat them.
- Remember to fill your senses with something uplifting: Music you love, a gorgeous sunset, a really great meal, passionate kisses, a heart to heart conversation with someone you care about.
- Drive carefully. It's not only cars that can be recalled by their maker.
- If you can't be kind, at least have the decency to be vague.
- If you lend someone anything and never see that person again, it was probably worth it.
- It may be that your sole purpose in life is simply to be kind to others.
- Nobody cares if you can't dance well. Just get up and dance.
- It's the second mouse that gets the cheese.
- When everything's coming your way, you're in the wrong lane.
- Birthdays are good for you. The more you have, the longer you live.
- Some mistakes are too much fun to only make once.
- We could learn a lot from crayons... Some are sharp, some are pretty, and some are dull. Some have weird names, and all are different colors, but they all have to live in the same box.
- A truly happy person is one who can enjoy the scenery on a detour.
- Feeling:
thoughtful - Listening to:Kaleidoscope World - Francis Magalona
Format: DL/UL @ hh:mm:ss
525/160 @ 17:55
526/146 @ 17:55:30
405/154 @ 17:56
376/216 @ 17:59
515/150 @ 19:42
531/229 @ 19:46
525/192 @ 19:57
515/233 @ 20:36
457/193 @ 20:05
529/179 @ 22:45
510/229 @ 23:17
516/183 @ 23:27
- Feeling:
creative - Listening to:Queen of the Hurt - Rockman Zero 4 GST
Give priority to “resolution of sexual abuse cases to ensure swift decision,” they asked government. School curricula ought to incorporate a “human sexuality education centered on responsibility and equal rights. We must see in our sexually violated sisters the face of God."He also cites the Jalosjos rape case as the example of how the government "bungled" on handling such cases, especially for someone high-profile, someone looked up to, as an ex-representative of Zamboanga del Norte, a province in Mindanao.
Former congressman Romeo Jalosjos is the classic example. Furious citizens fought long before Jalosjos could be docked for raping an 11-year-old girl. He got two life sentences. In April 2007, this expelled lawmaker from Zamboanga del Norte province finally coughed up P800,000 in court-ordered damages. By then, the victim was almost 20.How that happened is another story.
Despite protests, President Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo commuted the still influential Jalosjos’ double life sentence. In 2012, he may qualify for pardon. That’s when he turns 70.
This shoots political crap with pardon powers. We saw that too in the pardon of former President Joseph Estrada who had been convicted for plunder. Do these cynical power plays entrench further “a culture of abuse”?
If we are to protect the citizens, particularly women and young girls among others, from abuse of the sexual -- and too often physical -- kind, the government alone does not shoulder that responsibility. We must remember that. Education is the key protection for ordinary citizens such as ourselves.
- Feeling:
bitchy - Listening to:Scrapped Beat - Rockman Zero 4 GST
Should you follow orders from you self or the other self?
The premise behind the film "Valkyrie" was the triumph of conscience as a personal choice over authority from the man considered by the world as the most ruthless man on Earth, Adolf Hitler. The film documented one of 15, and unfortunately the last, attempt to assassinate the man and take over the government of Germany and save it from annihilation by the incoming Allied Forces, who are also attempting to save the world by removing Hitler by military force from power.
In Colonel Staffenberg's position, it was a choice of protecting the honor of your family, or being remembered in history as allied with Hitler the evil leader of one of the Axis Powers. He had to something but in his standing, what could he?
And so, he, along with his allies in the military and political fields, staged a pseudo-coup. It was such because the other parties would be tagged as conspirators in an attempt to assassinate their own leader and Commander-in-Chief. All without their knowledge, and with the politico-military allies privy with respect to the details.
As the quote went, "Military operations never go as planned,"
Apparently not all of Hitler's secret infantry, dubbed Valkyrie, were mere pawns in his board. A few elité members were able to, in one way or another, see through the holes in the so-called "coup". From there, they knew who were the true Enemies of the State, and summarily executed them.
Unfortunately, the members -- and allies -- of Staffenberg's group went down in history books as the true Heroes of the State, so to speak, and their memories went into the making of this film.
It goes to show that heroism is not always bred in the battlefield. It is within our ranks that we can perceive them as such - heroes.
- Feeling:contemplative
- Listening to:Dive Into Depth - Rockman ZXA GST
It is broke. It was before.
From error-riddled textbooks to underpaid teachers, and even the learning strategies implemented in elementary and high schools, the education of young minds brought into the world experiencing the global financial crisis is in peril. The crisis does not discriminate public and private schools, as well as affluent and impoverished families whose children they send to these schools, as institutions of learning.
Whatever is happening in the ideal world of quality education? Not included into the equation are bureaucreacy, unparalleled squandering of funds by politicians for their interests -- naked, vested, self, you supply the word -- and loss in focus of what the government prioritizes. To stimulate education is to stimulate the economy, and to do so do we stimulate our minds on how to go through about the global financial crisis. A one-man -- or woman -- army is an illusion in the world of economics, and the President should know better.
If this trend of mismanagement of funds that should have gone towards molding young bright minds for weathering whatever clout we are facing continues, who knows if the crisis will end. Some say it is this year, some say it is next year. I dare say not until we deal with this education crisis can we focus on other issues that need education that is managed financially just.
To extend this call, the burning of public buildings such as markets and malls, as well as private structures such as our homes (owned, leased, or otherwise), required education that is not mismanaged, financially or politically. Let us use our education management justly, lest we need anti-ADHD substances -- Strattera, as an example -- to assuage this.
- Feeling:
complacent - Listening to:Trap Factory - Rockman ZX GST
While filming some scenes for Marino near a temple last week in Bangkok, Krista Ranillo was surprised when a cop nearly arrested her. It turned out that Krista was in a sexy dress and it was not allowed in that area. The cop didn’t know that a shooting was in progress because the camera was hardly visible.Good thing no one was hurt, in any way possible, in the encounter. It's a misunderstanding, after all. Emphases mine. ^^
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“There was a rally against the new Prime Minister when we were in Bangkok,” narrated Jojo. “The cops didn’t know that we were shooting a movie, so they didn’t mind us. They must have thought we were a TV news crew.”
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- Feeling:
amused - Listening to:Whisper of Relics - Rockman ZXA GST